✨ What does the process of healing look like? For me, it felt like holding and cradling myself with love as I witnessed my own rebirth.
I had to confront the darkest parts of myself that were hidden by my optimistic, free-loving, and easy-going personality. My soul demanded that I see ALL of me and radically love myself, truly unconditionally, not just through my words but through consistent actions.
So I had to process it all — the heart-wrenching and complex grief, the guttural, psychotic rage, the guilt and shame of having ever lost my courage, and face the deepest fears that broke my mind into pieces…Then, I alchemized every piece of chaos I found within, into an unwavering love for life, again.
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During these last 6 years, the Universe continuously asked me to LEVEL UP and embody every piece of wisdom I said I knew.
My humbling came from recognizing just how quick my mind really is at protecting myself from my deepest pains and fears…and at upholding the persona I held so perfectly in place for a sense of safety.
When the truth felt impossible to feel, my dualistic mind organized my experience with logic, allowing me to bypass deeply uncomfortable emotions. Emotions which needed to be honoured. I knew I was also bypassing getting intimate with myself, and with LIFE, but I chose disconnection…convincing myself it wasn’t the ‘right time’ to feel.
So, life kept pushing me to expand my heart by making my experiences impossible to reconcile with the mind alone—until surrendering was the only way through, breaking down yet another layer of my hardened ego.
This journey of coming back into coherence (in mind, body and spirit), and back to my HEART, took radical self-devotion, true gentleness, and immense patience. It led me through all different realms of healing, and ultimately back to the safety within myself.
This human journey of forgetting and coming back home to ourselves is the most beautiful experience of all and it is as much a solo adventure as a collective one.
🐉 Healing for me means returning to my fullest, rawest expression. And it feels like surrendering to life and the unknown, with an open heart.
